Anxiety (Ascenders & Pure)

What is anxiety and how do you know you have it?

Anxiety is a triggered condition present in most children, teens, and adults. The disorder is not black and white, as every person has triggers specific to their own experiences. In my own opinion, anxiety is created from darkness.

One of my favorite movies, A Wrinkle in Time, opened my eyes to everyday darkness that can be avoided. Things as simple as thinking negative thoughts, raising your voice, and not being able to control your emotions all labeled as darkness. Jealousy, anger, rage, fear, guilt, greed, judgement, pain, and despair. These little flashes of darkness can produce anxiety inside yourself and others.

As a child being yelled at produces an extreme amount of anxiety that the child will have to live with for the rest of his or her life. Things like being moved around a lot, mean kids at school, and stress can trigger anxiety. These feelings and events cause heightened sense of emotion and muscle tension. Not to mention uncontrollable worry, difficulty concentrating, and irritability.

In fact, anxiety is a very normal response to stressful life events like moving, changing schools or your parents getting a divorce. However, when symptoms of anxiety become larger than the events that triggered them and begin to interfere with your life, they could be signs of an anxiety disorder.

These feelings and events will have your emotions bent out of shape. You can’t stop worrying about the littlest things, not able to focus, and somehow become an easy target. A wrinkle in time helped me discover that strength comes from embracing one’s individuality and that the best way to triumph over fear is to travel by one’s own light.

Signs of anxiety in yourself:

  • Agitation (Being agitated means to feel upset, nervous, or worried)
  • Restlessness (Being restless means to feel tense and fidgety)
  • Poor focus (Not being able to focus at school, at home, or with friends)
  • Headaches or stomachaches (Believing your not feeling well although you physically have no symptoms)
  • Avoidance (Avoiding things like going to lunch with other kids, going outside or to an event, or even avoiding your family and friends)
  • Tantrums (Not being able to control your emotions to the point of lashing out)
  • Crying (Emotions all over the place, even when you’re not sad your still one bad word away from busting out in tears)
  • Refusing to go to school


I use the Bullet Journaling system to track the signs and triggers of my anxiety. Below is a page from my personal journal showing you how you can to travel by your own light, not let anxiety win the battle between love and fear.


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